Today I was lucky enough that my friend's daughter agreed to come and model for me. I have known Emma since she was born, our families spend a lot of time together. For this I am so thankful. Emma came so I could play - try new ideas. Her participation shifted the energy with my own child. Charley actually agreed to model too.
I had fun and I think they did, and then we were done. Not until I sat down to edit did I realize just how much power and symbolism of these images have for me.
I picked the antlers, because they were a symbol for me. They are part of the rite of a Montana Childhood. They symbolize a proud creature that adds to its rack each year of growth. These children of ours - are in the very midst of huge change and growth. Both Emma and Charley will be freshmen this fall. Yet these years are often so hard to navigate as teens.
I am personally able to say these are challenging years to parent. Yet,they are crucial years to protect, nurture and encourage our children. For me it takes work, it is stretching me. It is making me grow, it is making me remember the vulnerability, the challenges and the difficulties I had as a teenager. Things I had wanted to bury and forget come back to me. I want to be a better mom, I want to understand. I need to take a breath, to breathe, to remember when the actions taken leave me aghast, frustrated, mad. I need to see what buttons it pushes in me - its a two way communication - and I am learning we are both growing.
Taking these images and editing them, reminds me of the Youth, the Warrior of Youth, The adult figuring out how to emerge and be.
Today reminds me of the burden and difficulties that we have as teens and other times in our lives to figure out who we are, what we want, how to be.
It reminds me it is important, VITAL, that I as a parent provide the shelter, comfort and understanding to enable the best adult to emerge from this precious child of mine.